Sunday, November 27, 2022

On Just Being Japanese

 

I was never just Japanese, because my parents needed 
Us to be Americans They planted a hyphen in my ethnicity, 
Sown by their incarceration in young adulthood. 

Like many of his peers, my father served in the Army 
Fighting not just for his country but for his race, 
So his fight continued after the war and he enlisted. 

His children. We never flew Koi on Boy’s Day; 
Walked into anyone’s house, including our own with shoes 
On; used chopsticks only in the dark of our kitchen. 

 I came to think of myself as White whenever a mirror 
Was not in front of me until I came to Hawai‘i 
And was surrounded by walking mirrors in Moiliili. 

I became so awkwardly comfortable with my new 
Identity that I did not notice how Japanese I had become 
Until the time my parents came to Hawai‘i and we walked 

 Into a roadside diner with an American name. In the open, 
On every table, were bottles of Kikkoman shoyu. 
My father kept picking one up and staring at it.

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